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Getting into shape.. [26 Jul 2006|03:08am]
ok, so I realize that for some of you reading this the following list of exercises may seem easy..

For the rest of us Couch Potatoes, let me assure you that I am in pain *lol*

In order to start off with a rank of E-3 I have to be able to meet the BCT Graduation standard.

Before you are able to graduate basic training you have to pass the PT test. Well, in order for me to make rank I have to pass the PT test BEFORE going to basic training...

Sounds like fun right :) *lol*

sit ups- I need to complete 43 sit-ups in less than 2 minutes. This one won't be too hard, I'm constantly working on it.

running- I need to complete a 2 mile run in less than 20 minutes 36 seconds.. again- this shouldn't be too difficult, although I am terrible at running.

push-ups (no girly push-ups allowed.) I need to do 11 in less than two minutes.
Ok. When I write that, it seems like such a small and trivial little number..

Tell that to my poor little arms!! :)

I think I can... I think I can.. I think I can...
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two new pictures [25 Jul 2006|03:05pm]
Me at the Sterling Renaissance Festival. It's important to take the time to stop and smell the roses, don't you agree??!!

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myspace [25 Jul 2006|01:26am]

I have a myspace account - it's more fluff than anything else.
But it does have some... interesting pictures of me on it *lol*

by interesting, I'm thinking PG-13 :)

I did warn you ;)
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[24 Jul 2006|11:45am]
I didn't take the 91T job - Animal Care Specialist- mostly because it dealt with animals in labs, I'm not a lab animal type of person.

So I shopped around a little more and found an even better job, for the time being. 68S - Preventative Medicine Specialist - basically a health inspector.

Boot camp is in Fort Leonard Wood, Missouri for 9 weeks.
AIT is at Fort Sam Houston for 17 weeks.
Then I'll be headed to parts unknown!
I'm hoping for Hawaii (doesn't everyone) or Italy, or Belgium.
If I have to get stuck in the US hopefully it will be out west in Nevada or New Mexico.
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OFFICIAL [06 Jul 2006|05:26pm]
well it's official. I am now in the United States Army.

I leave out of Syrcause NY on Aug 29th.

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Good Deed :o) [23 Jun 2006|08:27am]
Yesterday we had a major thunderstorm in the area.
While driving home in it I saw a dog on I-75, which most
of you know is a VERY big highway.

I just couldn't leave him walking on the side of the road
in the rain so we stopped. I tried to lure him with pizza *lol*
which really didn't work but we managed to grab him and get him in the car.
He had no collar on and he looked abused.

His skin was showing in places and looked red and raw.
It looked like he had all these sores on him from neglect.
And he had a large piece of skin dangling from him.

We were so upset that someone would do such a thing.
We tried called vets in the area but it was afterhours.
We decided to take him back to our vet and drove there.
Unfortunately no one was there and they didn't answer their
after hours number. So we took the dog back home with us.
He smelled really bad, and no knowing what kind of condition
he was in, we didn't want him in the house.

So we walked him around the yard with a make shift leash and kept
trying to call different vets. We finally found one that would
let us bring him in to get checked out.

*Side note: We could've dropped him off at the animal shelter, but
we really didn't want him to possibly be put down*

So anyhow- we drive to the vet and tell her how we thought he was abused.
She then looks him over and tells us that he's actually just really
old. The piece of skin is just a benign skin tag. She did a blood test
on him to see if he had heartworms and he didn't. He also had no fleas.
So she said he was more than likely taken care of.
He had a skin problem which comes with old age, and the limp
I noticed was also due to old age.
So we felt better at that point.
We told them to keep him over night, and clean him up real good, and in the morning we'd come and get him and place ads in the papers.

Here's where the story gets interesting :o)

The Owner of the dog showed up at Her vet to let them know her
dog got away during the thunderstorm.
The other vet who wasn't on call last night replied to her, "Buddy is in the back. Some nice people brought him in last night."

So out of the 11 or so different vets we called, we just happened to take
the dog, Buddy, to the one he always goes to. :o)

So dog and owner are reunited :)

moral of the story is- stop and take the time to help out our animal friends :o) it'll make you smile in the end :)
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Mexico [19 Jun 2006|05:24pm]
Just got back from Cozumel and the Mayan Ruins of Tulum!!!


More info and pics soon!!!

One very important thing to remember ladies...



decide to try a topless beach for the first time without using sunscreen...

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Update - Please read - Going offline for a while. [07 Jun 2006|08:46pm]
Ok- Sorry I haven't updated in a while.
I've been busy trying to figure out my life.

Alex is currently up in NY with my mom, for the summer.
It really sucks not having her around.
*Completely* no fun at all.

Which is only proving to myself that the next few months
will definitely be the hardest time in my life.

* I am joining the Army.

Yes. You read that right.
I am joining the army. I will be in bootcamp in August, at Ft. Jackson, which
is near Columbia South Carolina. After that, I will go to AIT - which is training
for the job, and that will be in San Antonio TX. I did really well on my ASVAB - 93 :o)
While I'm gone for those 22 weeks (yikes! 22 weeks) Alex will
still be with my mom.

That will be very tough. It's only been 5 days without her and
it's been very hard.

My job for the army will be a Vet. Assistant.
There is a slight, super small chance, that I will
ever be deployed to hostile territories.
99.5% chance that I will be stationed on a base.
I'm not sure where I will be stationed yet.

After Alex completes 1st grade she will come to live
with me on the base.

I will definitely give everyone an update when I can.
I'll have people updating this journal with contact
information for me -

Also, If you would *Definitely* like to keep in touch with me during
those 22 weeks __Please__ post a comment requesting so.
I will then get your address from you and write you
when I have my address :)

Wish me luck!
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If I don't post for a while.... [04 May 2006|07:06pm]
it's because I discovered the joys of a little thing called emulators... and I am now hooked again, like I was back in the 90's to games like The Legend of Zelda, Super Mario Brothers and Who Framed Roger Rabbit. :)
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dilemna [02 May 2006|08:51pm]
so the job I have is a factory job.
which isn't a problem..
it's the hours that pose a problem.

the hours make it impossible for me to
be home when alex gets home from school.
I would have to reply on my uncle to
pick her up after the after-school program,
feed her dinner, and put her to bed.

I wouldn't be getting home from work until around
3-4am monday-thursday, and occasionally on fridays.
so the problem i am facing is this..

do i really want alex to get home everyday and
basically be ignored.
my uncle doesn't talk to her.
doesn't play games with her.
all he does is watch disney channel with her.

this would be her life until at least
november. she's already going up to my mom's
house for the summer. she'll be leaving here at the end
of the month, and won't be getting back until the end
of july.

the idea that's floating around in my head is this:
do I just let her stay in New York until Christmas???
At which time I should be able to switch to dayshift and
if not- at least be able to find a decent job with better hours.

I just don't know if I can handle not having her around.
the longest I've ever gone without alex is one week.
i believe it was only 5 or 6 days and that was back when
i was really sick in the hospital with a staph infection.

what to do.. what to do..

any ideas?
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[01 May 2006|10:37pm]
my grandpa finally got to come home from the hospital.
although it seems that his cancer is being more agressive.

and my brother, who was supposed to get to come home in
less than two weeks for leave, isn't going to be able to
do it at all. :(

stupid war.
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[26 Apr 2006|10:43pm]
got a job.
more to follow.
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grandpa [15 Apr 2006|11:29pm]
so my grandpa will not be coming home from the hospital for easter...



this sucks.

it feels so weird, that he's not here. he's part of my daily routine..
everything feels odd.

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[11 Apr 2006|01:53pm]
Sunday is gloomy, my hours are slumberless
Dearest the shadows I live with are numberless
Little white flowers will never awaken you
Not where the dark coach of sorrow has taken you
Sunday is gloomy on shadows, I spend it all
My heart and I have decided to end it all
Soon there'll be candles and prayers that are sad I know
Let them not weep, let them know that I'm glad to go
Angels have no thought of ever returning you
Oh Would they be angry if I thought of joining you

Gloomy Sunday

Death is no dream for in death I'm carressing you
With the last breath of my soul I'll be blessing you

Gloomy Sunday
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[11 Apr 2006|10:52am]
wow. i didn't think i would be this nervous about making a phone call.
two more hours.

do i really want to make that phone call though????

i mean, for the last 8 years, i could just imagine that he's
off in england, performing. or on the road somewhere. somewhere, where he's
having fun and smiling and not able to call... or write..
that would have to be mars then.
but he still would have found a way to write.

he's been alive in my mind for the last 8 years.
today that might all end.

i'm not sure if i'm ready for that.
i was still e-mailing him periodically.
that finally stopped working as well.

i dont think this is a healthy thing- but he was right.
he wrote in one of his letters that our love is special for
one another and will never end.

it would be so much nicer to have him here to share it with though.

enough rambling for now.
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[11 Apr 2006|09:25am]
every year it is the same.

his birthday comes and goes..
i cry.

the day he died comes and goes..
and i cry some more.

this year i was online looking up something and i came across a series
of pictures that caught my eye. my heart skipped beats and i couldn't
i swear it looked like him.

then i started thinking that maybe he didn't die.
i mean there was no funeral.
he was cremated.
so who's to say that it wasn't all just a way for him to finally
get a way from everything?

my brain does this to me from time to time.
it really does suck.

so what did i do?
well i couldn't and didn't really know if i wanted to call his exgirlfriend.
the one he was living with at the time of his death.

so i started doing some investigative work.
i called the police where he lived to see if there had been a police report.
then i called the medical examiners office to see if there had
been an autopsy.

i'm obviously delusional.

i realize this, but that doesn't stop my brain.

i will have a definite answer around 1pm my time.


why, after 8 years, i still can't let go?
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myspace [10 Apr 2006|10:41pm]
I just created a myspace account

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[31 Mar 2006|01:43am]
happy birthday JT.

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New York [28 Mar 2006|08:47am]
I'll be leaving for NY this Friday.
We'll be there sometime Saturday and staying for a week.
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